The struggle....

Everyone struggles with something at some point of their life. I remember when I used to workout and the weight would just melt off, but when you add other things into the mix like health, and prescriptions then things aren't as easy as they once were before. It's funny because a co-worker and I were talking today and she said "Dolicia life just isn't fair. You eat so healthy, take the stairs to the fourth floor sometimes, and exercise regularly, but you struggle to lose weight. Me I eat garbage, and I am skinny as a rail. That's not fair, life is not fair for you." I feel that way alot of time, but at the same time I believe that EVERYTHING that I have gone through with my health is a blessing. Now, that sounds real crazy, but think about it. Someone is reading this blog saying wow look how positive she is, and may have made the decision themselves to look at life from a positive angle vs. negative. Everything that I have been through is a lesson for someone else including myself....Wait!!! Especially Myself!!!! I have a story, I have experience, I have a testimony, and I have a hell of alot of strength. I also have personal health goals that I will accomplish, and nothing can stop me from getting there which is why I go to the gym and make sure that majority of my meals are healthy. Now if you are reading this and flowing through life with no worries take a moment to consider your future health when you load your belly with fried foods, tons of candy, and other forms of the not so healthy stuff. I am so excited to meet the new me, but my body needs to work with me. I know that once I am off these medications the weight will melt off as if I am working as hard as I actually work to get there. LOL!!! July 27th is my next echo-cardiogram , daughters 2nd birthday, and an important day in the terms of EF because the higher means the closer I am to getting off the meds. 

 Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indomitable will. ~Mahatma Gandhi

A Hearts physical strength vs. numbers

"I don't need a number to determine the strength of my heart" is what I posted on Facebook last week while putting in some hard labor in the gym. I say this to myself because I believe in speaking things into existence rather good or bad. The reality is that I do need that number because it determines how long I remain on Losartan, Carvedilol, and Hydrochlorothiazide. Everyday I have to take this medications, but on the same note I need to get down to a clinically acceptable weight so my heart does not have to work so hard. This gets frustrating when I do my part, and my body does not respond as I would like. The doctors can't help me because the medications that they use in their patients for weight-loss could actually relapse me. I can't help, but to wonder if I didn't catch a virus in December would my numbers be normal at this point. That was in the past and everyday I have to do my part as I speak to my heart and tell it to do the same. Yes, I literally speak to my heart. Anyway, my next echocardiogram is on an very important day...Bella's birthday! I can't wait to see how much progress my heart has made in numbers because in my mind it beats strong, but I NEED TO GET OFF THESE MEDS!!!! 


Talk happiness; talk faith; talk health. Say you are well, and all is well with you, and God shall hear your words and make them true.~Ella Wheeler Wilcox
American Author and Poet