I Cried!!!!!!

Today was the day I have been waiting for since September. Today was my Cardiologist appointment for a routine Echo-cardiogram to determine if my EF (Ejection Fraction) increased from 50% to 55-60%. I laid on the table as I normally do to watch as the tech did his job. Watching my heart in 3D and 4D is very cool to me and most people have never experienced watching their heart beat and pump blood. I actually put that excitement level right after seeing a fetus heartbeat for the first time. As I viewed the monitor to watch every aspect of my heart do its job I did not get that "Yes" feeling. I had a feeling that it had not increased, but the news I received was even more shocking. When the tech was finished he left the room to give my doctor the results, and the words looks good did not leave his mouth. Instead, my doctor came back into the room and told me that some parts of my heart is only 40% and some 50% which puts me at 40-50%. Wow!!! In September I was at 50% across the board so this news was not what I wanted to hear. My plan for today was to go in and leave excited about having a heart that was functioning normal, but instead all I really heard was relapse. So of course this means that I have to continue taking these man mad drugs, and I am so eager to get off. As usual I ask questions, and wanted to know what could have set me back because I treat my body with much respect by eating  healthy and providing it with exercise. She told me that it is possible that the virus that I got last month could have affected me. That was the only time that I had abnormal symptoms like palpitations and a high resting heart rate. I left the room and scheduled my next appointment for July and the whole time I keep a smile on the outside. Her words replayed in my head over and over, and when I got in my truck I quickly went from smiling to having a face full of tears. Yes, I cried and no one will understand why unless they have experienced what I am experiencing. Attempts to stop the tears did not work, and I drove from Longwood to Sanford in tears, and the feeling of depression was starting to sink in. I AM A FIGHTER!!!!!!!! So although I am torn by todays news I will still continue to live a healthy lifestyle by eating foods that are healthy for my body, exercise, and smile. I AM A FIGHTER, I AM A FIGHTER, I AM A FIGHTER!!!!!!!!!!!!



"The first step in natural healing is responsibility. Natural healing is about taking control of your life and being responsible for everything that goes in and out of your body, mind and spirit."~Richard Schulze

"Look to your health; and if you have it, praise God, and value it next to a good conscience; for health is the second blessing that we mortals are capable of; a blessing that money cannot buy"~Izaak Walton

A new journey to a new me.....

Today I made the decision to join Weight Watchers. I am a pretty healthy eating individual, but I must admit that I don't always eat enough. Since I have a number of points to meet this is the way that I can ensure that I am eating the right amount of foods needed for the day.  I am very confident that this was the right decision because just as I provide support to others I know I need it too from others that have the same goal as myself. Not to mention that I can access the website and track everything using my Sprint Epic phone. Yay!!!!

      Now besides my weigh-in next week I have 3 doctor appointments, and one is my favorite. Yay!!!! I have my Cardiologist appointment on Wednesday and I get to see if my heart has finally made some progress and hit the 55-60% Ejection Fraction mark.  I have been treating my body good and praying so I hope that some progress is show. My first experience with PPCM I recovered within months, but this time I can't say the same. It has been over a year, but I know the time will come when my heart will be normal again and I hope that time is Wednesday. LOL!!! Seriously, I am so ready to get off of all this medication because it is playing a huge part in my non-weight loss. LBVS! I am going to cancel or reschedule my primary doctor til after I see my OB-GYN. I have been experiencing a nagging pain in my lower left abdominal and really need an answer to what's the cause. Hopefully nothing serious, but I just need to know because whatever it is it's affecting my flow of nature. I did have my tubes tied and burnt after giving birth in 2009 so I hope they are not in there doing any remodeling. Well, I can go all night, but I won't so I will live you with an inspiration quote and wish everyone a wonderful weekend and upcoming week. 

"Look to your health; and if you have it, praise God, and value it next to a good conscience; for health is the second blessing that we mortals are capable of; a blessing that money cannot buy." 
Izaak Walton

We did it!!!

We did it! We made it to Friday. I want you to take a moment to reflect on the events that occurred this week at home, work, school, and etc. My week begin slightly rocky since I was getting over being sick and taking care of the kids oh and working, but now I look back and see that I had a really good week no matter how many bumps I had to get over. Just remember that your thoughts become your actions so if you think positive then positive will happen. No plans, but I am going to have a Wonderful Weekend!!!! Hopefully, yours will be as good as mine.

It's a New Year!!!!

Happy New Year!!!! Although any day alive is the best day of the year I would  have rather spent the night with my friends, but because of this virus I stayed home watching "Watch what happens next" on Bravo. I was hoping to feel much better today, but I am still dealing with a fever, headache, chills, and allergies getting the best of me. Nothing natural seems to work, and when your on beta blockers or ace inhibitors you have to be careful about other medications that may affect you. The one med that I know may have helped makes you feel really doped up and thats a feeling that I rather do without. Top make things more eventful as I am relaxing playing Zuma Blitz I can start to feel my heart beating out of tune. My husband handed me my heart monitor and hmmmmm....My bp was 99/56 with a pulse of 103. Not to mention that the abnormal heartbeat sensor was flashing. I won't jump just yet because I am dealing with a fever of 102, so I will continue to monitor and if it gets in the 120's while resting then the pill I shall pop. Until then, I am going to reach into the back of my mind and relax on the porch as I watch the fields of white snow and trees without leaves....Goodnight World, and many Blessings to you all!!!!